"Don't Look Back"

When I woke this morning, I never thought a phrase from Lot's wife could have such impacting impressions on my heart. As I prepare to hit the next stretch of support raising at churches and small groups, how odd to be admonished to remember Lot's wife. The unnamed, only mentioned briefly women holds a mighty lesson for my roused heart. "Don't look back," she was told. This phrase, why did it enter my mind? 

This morning I awoke to an other divine gift. Inches of snow covered the ground, and a day of continued rest was just what the Lord knew I needed. Gratitude overwhelms my heart. Yesterday I used my snow day to prepare my presentations, work on some HR and thank you notes, but today was simply a day to enjoy a little extra time. I had two encouraging Skype conversations (both unexpected). 

After each of these Skype conversations, I had some thoughts on my mind I wanted to take to the Lord. I sat down in the guest bedroom thinking this will soon no longer be home. So many other missionaries have expressed that once you move overseas, you now have two homes. I am no newcomer to this either. Though only in Serbia a few months total, I know (though I try to trick my mind otherwise) that Serbia is now a home for me as well as my Kentucky home. There is just something about that place.

The Spirit is home in my heart. He is here, and He is there with me. This is comforting knowing that where ever I may go, the Lord is with me. He has also told me to not look back. I have recently questioned, Lord why have You guided my life in the directions You have? I have a degree in Marketing yet only used it for two years. I had feet that were unusable and full of pain and You remade them. I have parents, friends, my church, my dog, my job, my car, my life that I love; You, Lord, blessed me with these. Why now call me to leave these?

Because He is a sovereign God, and He told me to not look back. He has equipped me as He sees fit. My past has shaped my love for Christ. All those things will no longer be important in the same way. They must take on new roles in my life. My family will still be as dear to me, but in new ways. All that needs to remain is Him. So now, I look forward, and dare not look back. For questioning is doubt, and I serve a faithful Father.